Time. It passes. Sometimes fast and sometimes slow. It’s been nearly a year since we’ve seen each other. I thought perhaps if I gave you enough time that you would contact me again, see if I fancied a drink and a chat. But no. I’ve reached out to you and have been rewarded with the […]
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You were looking on a sex site when you saw someone you thought you recognized perhaps you paused, perhaps you saved the page, going back to check that you were right. Full of rage that a pervert, a whore, should be walking the same streets as you, you resolved something must be done. After all you were simply […]
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A friend asked me if I forgive you for leaving. It has been four years now since you packed your bags and walked out on me and our child. I don’t forgive you. You made the right decision, I don’t like how you executed it but now my life is something it could not have […]
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I don’t have the wit to write something suiting this departure but let me try to formulate the thoughts as I disappear from this life. This is not a leaving as in death. This is an end to my personality, my pseudo online. I am wanting just for one final shout out before I go. […]
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Life by a thousand cuts Paring down my soul I thought those days were over I thought I’d reached my goal My heart had healed Scarred, but once again whole You’ve made me bleed And cut away what was left of me There is nothing left to do But to take up the mask Again
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Life is funny, we are met with things, people, situations and at the time all we can do is make the best decision at that time. I don’t regret meeting you, falling in love with you, driving miles to see you see, staying up late to talk to you and I don’t regret ending it. […]
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It was an interesting two years of my life just spent. I learned much, loved some and hurt more than I cared too. I met some very amazing people and figured out a thing or two about myself and what I really want out of my life. It was truly a roller coaster ride and […]
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I am ugly. My body is disgustingly unattractive. My breasts are fatty and flabby. I have a stomach roll my doctor once expressed dismay about in a hospital ER. I’m 45 pounds overweight and nothing short of a surgery seems set to change that. I have hair where women should not have hair. I spend […]
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I miss the old me. The fun-loving, playful girl that people wanted to be around. Popular, exciting, loved. The girl who was in love. The girl that loved her life. She left a while ago. I can’t pinpoint exactly when or where, but she’s gone now. What’s left in her place is just a shell. […]
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It seems I’m slowly giving up. I used to interact much more especially with the ones I was close to. I miss some certain people that I can’t see regularly because of travel costs, hotel costs, time, money, illness and anxiety. I hate it when people tell me “oh just ignore your anxiety..” I can’t […]
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I spend my days in isolation longing for things that are just not a reality in my world. I wish I could happen upon a playmate to fill my time. A strong, dominant man who understood my situation, who respected my real life limitations but who would take from me when time permitted. Someone who […]
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I have given up gaming because you said it was taking up too much of our life, although all those times that you became addicted to a new game and disappeared for months at a time were ok. I have given up skype and instant messaging so that you do not have to fear that […]
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