This is where it ends.

***DISCLAIMER: We all try our best with what we have. This is just my try. I only refuse because it is important for me to believe and feel that this can change. This is how I start trying.*** As I think about kids. It’s not just about me anymore. From this point on I get […]

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Discovering my “softer” side

As with so many of my sexual “firsts”, my first time with a member of my own sex happened when I was at university. I’d never really considered myself to be bisexual before this encounter. I’d never really been particularly interested in girls sexually before that that. I could appreciate that another girl was attractive, […]

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Down to sleep

When I was younger I used to be scared of the end. But now that I am much older it holds no fear for me. It doesn’t hurt that I don’t have to actively particular in the end. It is rushing towards me like a train so all I need do is wait for it. […]

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Missing

I miss the early morning messages that started the day, I miss the late night ones that ended it. I miss telling you I’m home safe. I miss counting sleeps until I got to see you, I miss the sense of happiness and anticipation when I was going to. I miss watching bake off together. […]

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I love cheating

I love cheating I love everything about it. I love the lying and the secret messages and sneaking around behind my husband’s back. Nothing else makes me feel so alive. And if the man I am cheating with is married, that makes it even better. There is just something about starting a new affair that […]

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A bitter cup

My life has not turned out the way I had hoped it would. I seem to keep repeating the same mistakes over and over and now it is too late to live any other way. I had hoped that this time would be different but it isn’t. I lost myself in the possibilities and yet […]

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Opportunity to experience

I’ve recently come out.  Sort of.  Just to one friend.  I’ve been in a straight relationship for 20 years.  The sex has been unsatisfactory (we just don’t fit together properly, if that makes sense).  Ever since I was a child I have wondered if I might be bi.  But I’m not sure whether it is […]

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First time masturbation

I am a guy 21. I’ve never masturbated in my life yet. Is that a thing to worry about? I have been trying to but I don’t think I get aroused that much. Nothing works it for me. I don’t find any good in porn. I think I just give up in the process. Please […]

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Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

While I understand the gesture of, ‘Hey, suicidal people, reach out; we’re always listening!’ It’s often not that simple. Depression, by its very nature, makes you not want to talk to people. So you shun company and the void widens. But then, at some point, you’ll reach an epiphany: It’s bad. You need help. Now. […]

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What’s my place now?

A few years back I posted an anonymous submission after meeting a younger man on line  who I eventually met for real and wrote about where our relationship was at that stage and where it initially went. Our age gap is 22 years. We’re best friends. After about two years he felt that we were […]

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Lost

I got an email today, from your lover. This was a bit of a surprise because you have told me that you are just friends. It turns out that you see them whenever they are in town. When I think you are out with your friends. They tell me that when it started out it […]

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