I love cheating

I love cheating I love everything about it. I love the lying and the secret messages and sneaking around behind my husband’s back. Nothing else makes me feel so alive. And if the man I am cheating with is married, that makes it even better. There is just something about starting a new affair that […]

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A bitter cup

My life has not turned out the way I had hoped it would. I seem to keep repeating the same mistakes over and over and now it is too late to live any other way. I had hoped that this time would be different but it isn’t. I lost myself in the possibilities and yet […]

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First time masturbation

I am a guy 21. I’ve never masturbated in my life yet. Is that a thing to worry about? I have been trying to but I don’t think I get aroused that much. Nothing works it for me. I don’t find any good in porn. I think I just give up in the process. Please […]

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Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

While I understand the gesture of, ‘Hey, suicidal people, reach out; we’re always listening!’ It’s often not that simple. Depression, by its very nature, makes you not want to talk to people. So you shun company and the void widens. But then, at some point, you’ll reach an epiphany: It’s bad. You need help. Now. […]

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What’s my place now?

A few years back I posted an anonymous submission after meeting a younger man on line¬† who I eventually met for real and wrote about where our relationship was at that stage and where it initially went. Our age gap is 22 years. We’re best friends. After about two years he felt that we were […]

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Lost

I got an email today, from your lover. This was a bit of a surprise because you have told me that you are just friends. It turns out that you see them whenever they are in town. When I think you are out with your friends. They tell me that when it started out it […]

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The Infamous Ex

Last week my mother called. She quietly asked if I was able to speak, which meant was my husband nearby to hear her. He wasn’t so she proceeded to tell me. That day when she opened the mail box, inside was a letter from my ex. Here’s some background information: I haven’t been with my […]

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Unbound

I think it is time to call this done and dusted. We have lost what it was that made us D/s. I am not saying that it is your fault, I am sure I share as much of the blame as you. But it isn’t working anymore. You find my dominance onerous and chafing, while […]

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Repeating Patterns

The first time I had sex I was being raped by my boyfriend. I was 15, he was 14. I had been in a coercive controlling relationship with him for 10 months. It was on the floor of his parents dining room. I went completely still. I froze. I showered 7 times that day and […]

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Please stop

I want to reassure anyone reading this that I am fine, now. But for a while, I was very much not fine. Not fine at all. I’m uncertain whether I should be doing something about that or not. I met a man last year who became my Master. I was his slave. I am poly. […]

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Dear sub person

Dear sub person, The interactions between a Dom and a sub can be complex and complicated things. Yes, I know that you want me to just take what I want and that will make you happy. But is it really as simple as that? You seem to be forgetting that it might be the case […]

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