My whole life is a lie. Every part of my life is filled with deception. Not one aspect of it is untouched. In my vanilla life, no one knows that I am kinky or bi-sexual. It is my secret. My dirty little lie that would have me kicked out of my church, disowned by my […]

It wasn’t supposed to happen but it’s too late now. He’d never leave her and I’d never ask him to. But now I love him and I don’t ever want to have to let him go. I live for the rare moments when we wax lyrical about what it might be like if we were […]

I am not ambitious in my work, even though I am very good at what I do. I have wondered, often, why this is. I am usually very driven, very goal oriented. Ambitious. But the past few years, not nearly so much. As I pull this thought out of my head and put it on […]

A man assaulted me, once. It happened at a house party.  I was very drunk. I was laying on the floor on top of a sleeping bag with a blanket around me.  I had removed my dress and was wearing only my bra. I was wrapped pretty securely in that blanket, laying on my front, […]

Why do you have to be you? Isn’t it enough that since you’ve opened up to me I’ve seen you differently? Isn’t it enough that I am taken and these thoughts about you are wrong, just for that? But no.  You have to be you.  The person I should never look at that way.  I […]

We really thought it would be okay. We really thought we could do this and not become like all the others. But I don’t know how much longer I can keep the lid on the box.  He’s grown too big for it, too important.  I’m trying so hard to get a grip again. I wish […]

A little while ago my Daddy told me I was to sleep with my collar on, leashed to the headboard of my bed. As I lay there with the cold chain in my hand, feeling at peace in his ownership of me, a morbid thought passed through my mind. What would happen if that chain […]