Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

While I understand the gesture of, ‘Hey, suicidal people, reach out; we’re always listening!’ It’s often not that simple. Depression, by its very nature, makes you not want to talk to people. So you shun company and the void widens. But then, at some point, you’ll reach an epiphany: It’s bad. You need help. Now. […]

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What’s my place now?

A few years back I posted an anonymous submission after meeting a younger man on line¬† who I eventually met for real and wrote about where our relationship was at that stage and where it initially went. Our age gap is 22 years. We’re best friends. After about two years he felt that we were […]

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Lost

I got an email today, from your lover. This was a bit of a surprise because you have told me that you are just friends. It turns out that you see them whenever they are in town. When I think you are out with your friends. They tell me that when it started out it […]

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The Infamous Ex

Last week my mother called. She quietly asked if I was able to speak, which meant was my husband nearby to hear her. He wasn’t so she proceeded to tell me. That day when she opened the mail box, inside was a letter from my ex. Here’s some background information: I haven’t been with my […]

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Unbound

I think it is time to call this done and dusted. We have lost what it was that made us D/s. I am not saying that it is your fault, I am sure I share as much of the blame as you. But it isn’t working anymore. You find my dominance onerous and chafing, while […]

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Repeating Patterns

The first time I had sex I was being raped by my boyfriend. I was 15, he was 14. I had been in a coercive controlling relationship with him for 10 months. It was on the floor of his parents dining room. I went completely still. I froze. I showered 7 times that day and […]

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Please stop

I want to reassure anyone reading this that I am fine, now. But for a while, I was very much not fine. Not fine at all. I’m uncertain whether I should be doing something about that or not. I met a man last year who became my Master. I was his slave. I am poly. […]

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Dear sub person

Dear sub person, The interactions between a Dom and a sub can be complex and complicated things. Yes, I know that you want me to just take what I want and that will make you happy. But is it really as simple as that? You seem to be forgetting that it might be the case […]

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I am nothing

I know that my submission means I can’t, or won’t, ask for what I need. The key to that submission is you taking what you need, without that I am nothing. When I am pushed away, rejected and ignored. When you are doing it because it’s what I want, it becomes meaningless. Without you doing […]

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What about love?

What about love? It isn’t real. There is no love. It is just a lie to excuse our behaviour. I know because I have learned that everyone is a selfish cunt. They claim that they love you when all they do is hurt and betray you for their own ends. Your spouse doesn’t love you, […]

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Lover vs husband

I have a lover. My husband agreed to open our marriage, and now I have an amazing, sexy, intelligent, breath-taking lover. Our friendship is great, and our sex is just phenomenal! Partly, it’s his gorgeous, huge cock and the way it fills me so completely and perfectly. Moreso, it’s because I enjoy the fucking just […]

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On Internet Friend Day

Although some may trivialise the importance of online friendship, I can’t even begin to explain the impact it has had on my life. Over the Internet, I found a handful of people who shared my views and kookiness and made me feel less alone in the world. These people were open and welcoming, friendly and […]

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