I know this isn’t usually the kind of post we see here, but I’m desperate. I really need some input. I am seriously considering leaving my husband. We love each other, we have children together but I am not happy. He is emotionally neglectful at times and can be very selfish, although he doesn’t seem […]
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I love you. I have told you this, just once. You told me, too. We cannot be together. I understand this, I know. I get it. I agree. But I love you. You changed me in ways I never believed I could be changed. You challenged me when others nodded and agreed. You forced me […]
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It starts tomorrow…….. the line will be crossed……. I am meeting N for a weekend away. I have made my excuses, set things up so that we can be together for an entire weekend. A weekend of deviant and dark exploration. I.CANNOT.WAIT!!! To say that I am excited is an understatement. To say I am […]
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Ne vous cachez pas de moi ces pensées qui agitent mes démons intérieurs car sans connaissance, il n’est que le sentiment de trahison réelle ou imaginaire Où est l’espace pour croître, la chance d’apprendre? Si je ne suis pas au courant de ce que vous désirez La chance que je vais échouer est grand, mais […]
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I haven’t been to see a doctor for 22 years. I should go and see a doctor. Not that there’s anything wrong with me; I should just check. And find out what my blood type is. Someone close to me was just diagnosed with breast cancer. Makes you think. And maybe a psychiatrist. He wants […]
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It’s strange. I don’t know how to talk to you anymore. Fuck, I know. We’ve been two peas in a pod for so long and now I just can’t be. You don’t realize it, do you? We’ve grown apart. I’ve changed and you don’t even see it. Where were you when I needed you the […]
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So I’m finding myself back here again writing. I’ve written about my Ex a lot recently. I mentioned Him in a previous post about if I should forgive or not when he went away the first time. But He did it again.. this time He became emotionally abusive towards me and the fact I was […]
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8th September 2012 My husband does not get it ~ I have tried in many ways… leaving out books and articles, leaving webpages up ~ even asking. I want to be dominated, I enjoy pain intermingled with my pleasure ~ I live to please and serve …. He does not get it, what I am, […]
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She could hear her breathing in her ears and the pulse from her heart thudded reassuringly. She exhaled. Catherine had everything. She was pretty, smart, witty, friendly, with a high powered job; she had it all. In fact she was very happy with her life, particularly right now, at this moment. She felt all the […]
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Daydreamer Another chapter ends in tears. Why do people like me? Sometimes I wish they didn’t. I never wanted to hurt anyone, least of all me. I didn’t know this would happen. I didn’t want it. I didn’t want you to like me. I just wanted all the hot sex. We can pretend but in […]
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To read Part I click HERE and for Part II click HERE *** The shock was sudden. As if I was watching a ghost, or a Ferrari driving in. Here she was in her glorious passion-red dress, and Louisa was right behind her. I think I stopped with both hands on my open jacket. I […]
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I had to share this with people… It was just too good to be true… One of my best guy friends was talking to me last night while I was lying in bed.. I’ve been unwell and haven’t had much contact with said friend as his girlfriend is the jealous type and she keeps crooning […]
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