It’s been a long time now since I’ve called him Sir. It’s been a while since we’ve even really talked. The ache ebbs and flows but mostly the longing has settled into a soft sadness in my soul. I still see Him around the internet spaces and my heart smiles a little when I do. […]

10th May 2012 It is a symbol of the Dom/sub lifestyle that is so intrinsic but outsiders often react quite strongly to it.  I have found that each sub has their own reaction to their collar but there are common themes, this is my perspective. When my Sir puts my collar on, there is sense […]

I feel stuck. My depression isn’t helping I’m left feeling rotten, and like my life doesn’t always have meaning these days. I miss Him, I can’t wait until we can just hang out again together here… but then I feel guilty. I hate not being able to travel due to ill health. I could go […]

I need a Master. I need someone to take the reigns of my pleasure and control me. I don’t need to be told how to live my life. I don’t need direction on the mundane details of my day to day, but my pleasure is a whole other story. I need to be told, when, […]

I yearn for her touch. I long for it. Dream of it. Slowly entice the juice from my cunt as I touch myself to thoughts of her. Unsavoury thoughts. Forbidden thoughts. She is the fruit set down by Satan to tempt me into wicked sin. She is the ripe, juicy apple and I am desperate to have […]

There’s a fine line between love and hate. Potent passion and desire exist in both. Equally powerful and equally destructive. But when love breeds hate, it’s the very blackening of the soul that succumbs to the devil. I have that black soul, my heart now withered and shrivelled, and I have the devil blowing his […]

I am a successful woman. I am a manager with a national company and my career is ascending skywards.  I am in control and in charge.  I thrive on high pressure situations and also have children and a husband whom I love and cherish. I can (and until very recently) do manage and balance my […]

I need a break from my life I have grown apart from my reality It will destroy the most important people around me Is that better than the destruction within I am scared I am sad I am the most unhappy unfulfilled and unbalanced I have ever been this can’t be good.

I’m sat here heart broken… I haven’t spoken to Him now for nearly a month. I log in regularly on my facebook via my phone and check emails, skype messages and calls even while being this sick I’ve done it but this afternoon I logged into facebook and what do I find. He is on […]