It’s been a long time now since I’ve called him Sir. It’s been a while since we’ve even really talked. The ache ebbs and flows but mostly the longing has settled into a soft sadness in my soul. I still see Him around the internet spaces and my heart smiles a little when I do. I miss Him less every day but I still miss Him at least a little every day. He still occupies a little piece of me. I will always belong to Him. He hasn’t given me a direction in almost six months, but if He were to do it today, I would fall at His feet and obey… without question.