I am not ambitious in my work, even though I am very good at what I do. I have wondered, often, why this is. I am usually very driven, very goal oriented. Ambitious. But the past few years, not nearly so much. As I pull this thought out of my head and put it on […]

A man assaulted me, once. It happened at a house party.  I was very drunk. I was laying on the floor on top of a sleeping bag with a blanket around me.  I had removed my dress and was wearing only my bra. I was wrapped pretty securely in that blanket, laying on my front, […]

Why do you have to be you? Isn’t it enough that since you’ve opened up to me I’ve seen you differently? Isn’t it enough that I am taken and these thoughts about you are wrong, just for that? But no.  You have to be you.  The person I should never look at that way.  I […]

We really thought it would be okay. We really thought we could do this and not become like all the others. But I don’t know how much longer I can keep the lid on the box.  He’s grown too big for it, too important.  I’m trying so hard to get a grip again. I wish […]

A little while ago my Daddy told me I was to sleep with my collar on, leashed to the headboard of my bed. As I lay there with the cold chain in my hand, feeling at peace in his ownership of me, a morbid thought passed through my mind. What would happen if that chain […]

I’ve attempted to post this so many times over the last week, but keep deleting it. I think I’m going crazy! I’ve met a younger man, it was initially on line but we’ve taken it into reality within a short space of time. It’s been sexual on line but not yet in reality. He has […]

I’m terrified that I might hurt two people that I love.      

You told me that it would be different. It is not You told me that the past was gone and the future would be better. It is not So Fuck You!