I don’t consider myself a sex blogger. I talk about sex and I certainly play sexually on twitter, but I am far from what I would consider a sex blogger. That said, I do write the occasional piece of erotica or about a certain aspect of sex which I find interesting. It’s more a hobby than a full time occupation. The reason for this is my lack of experience in the sexual world because of a secret. A secret that holds me back from really pushing myself.
I am on twitter/Fetlife as a Dom. I feel like a Dom and I have many Dom qualities. Yet I have not backed this up in the real world with an actual one to one session, for want of a better word. This is because I hide a secret which I’m embarrassed by but know there is nothing I can do to change it. I have a small penis
Before you start to say size doesn’t matter it’s what you do with it, let me put this too you. If your partner had a small cock could you do half the things you do? Would positions become harder as it just won’t reach? Certain areas of domination are harder to achieve i.e., Throat Fucking. Would it still turn you on to see it erect but still smaller than you ex’s flaccid cock?
These thoughts run through my head daily when I play on twitter. Here I am this confident Dom yet in real life is upset by his lack of manhood, I lack confidence as I don’t want to let people down. I am lucky that being an online Dom is about the emotional rather than the physical. I know there are plenty of other things that I can do in the bedroom that don’t involve cock, but again if you met someone for sex and didn’t get penetration how would you feel?
Being involved in the erotic community is fantastic and I wouldn’t change it for the world but I feel like a fraud at times. I feel like I am not worthy to join and I should sit on the side lines because of something I was born with. How can something so small have such an impact on who I am?