I have a lover. My husband agreed to open our marriage, and now I have an amazing, sexy, intelligent, breath-taking lover. Our friendship is great, and our sex is just phenomenal! Partly, it’s his gorgeous, huge cock and the way it fills me so completely and perfectly. Moreso, it’s because I enjoy the fucking just so much.
My husband confessed a few weeks ago he’s actually not very comfortable with this whole consensual nonmonogamy thing after all. I felt myself starting to slide into a sick, agonizing anxiety – which I fought my way out of over a span of many years. I talked to my lover, who was so understanding and compassionate bout it all, and we agreed we would take a short break for my husband’s sake.
My husband has not touched me for months. I am craving his touch, smile, attention, anything, and all he can say is that he’s having a hard time. Actually, he repeats his woes ad nauseum, says he needs to regain his balance, and still does nothing.
How long am I supposed to do this??? I miss my lover so incredibly badly…