Longing for a different life
I wish I made enough money to support myself and my kids. I wonder sometimes if that simple inability is what keeps me married. It’s weird because I love my husband, completely. He is very good to me, works hard, stays within our understood limitations with regards to fidelity, and lots and lots of other good things. But I am sick to fucking death of being married. I want some freedom. I’ve been married my entire adult life and I’m just exhausted with having to constantly check with someone else before making a decision and then if they (being my husband) don’t want to do the thing I want to do, I have to decide to push the issue or to just give in and not do it. I’m tired of that bullshit. I just want to make a decision and then go do the thing I want to do.